dailygaelley

… has been and will be the most frequent greeting you will encounter for the couple following weeks. 2018 has gone and with its end comes along another year of possibilities. A new year has often translated to a clean slate. This line of thinking creates the notion that people have something to look forward to—– that whatever horrible experiences they encountered in the past year is long gone and that they have another chance to not mess things up. 

I am a wary believer of this notion. The way I see it, the beginning or end of a year does not have any effect or weight on how the year/thing/experience/relationship/life has turned out. I think most people should focus on the fact that this chance they often long for… this clean slate, comes with waking up everyday. The minute you yawn and stretch yourself out, greeting the day, is another chance.

Believe it or not, I call BS on the whole, “I’ll do (insert something important here) next year.” I think most people just love procrastinating. Instead of preaching to the world about how you’ll do this next year or when the year begins or when the month begins, why not make the small steps into pursuing said thing?

But Gaelle, what the hell are you talking about? Don’t YOU procrastinate???

Why, yes, I do. However, I don’t preach about it. A great example is how I’d been thinking about going to the gym or cutting off carbs since I don’t know when. I know I am procrastinating in a way that I am not doing anything towards achieving that goal— but I don’t preach about it. I don’t talk about how I’ll do it in the new year or anything. The sole reason I do this is because I believe that I don’t like disappointing myself. I have spent years pressuring myself into doing things I didn’t particularly like just because I thought it would bring success… and it did, to a point. But I realized that the success didn’t always bring joy or satisfaction. Instead, it created resentment and regret. (yikes!)

So I’m ending this post with a greeting and a reminder for myself. I am going to achieve my goals this year without going crazy over the pressure I put over myself. I’m not going to pressure myself into creating a weird deadline and then cry when the results aren’t there yet. I’m going into 2019 with a open and positive mind.

Come at me, 2019!